[:.duel jewel.:]
06.10. 2003_{11:01 p.m.}
omg! watching videos of duel jewel in manhatten's bar and grill! ahh.. hayato is so cute! im offically in love with him all over again! ah..

[ backwards ]
05.13.2003_{07:04 p.m.}
i dont mind not moving forward and juss stayin at one spot.. but plz dont let me move backwards.. i cant... why are all these feelings coming back to me suddenly? i havent put much thought to it for the longest time.. why now? i know that im makin a big deal out of this.. but everything reminds me of it.. the embarassment.. the low self-esteem.. i dont need that.. not now.. not ever.. though im not the best or anywhere near perfect.. even i dont deserve to feel this way.. no one deserves to feel ugly, unwanted, and most importantly hurt.. not now not ever.. whatever is causing this feeling.. plz.. juss let me be..

[ mistaken ]
05.09.2003_{12:44 a.m.}
crap!! juss discovered the miyavi shibuya hall t-shirt that i bought is actually a long sleeve!! shiet i wanted an actual t-shirt!! >.< grr.... and on top of that.. a more prettier limited miyavi short-sleeve t-shirt came out after i bought this one!! sighs.. o well.. at least its still miyavi.. except mine says miyaji cuz its for his first live.. while the other ones say myv (with miyavi written underneath).. i want that t-shirt too!!

[ torment begins as of now ]
05.07.2003_{09:09 p.m.}
starting my economics essay.. have no idea what im writing about. but if i put it off any longer i wont have anything to hand in on friday.. worth 15% and im totally clueless on what im doing.. someone help me!!

[ day one of pig disection ]
05.06.2003_{10:27 p.m.}
it did not go well at all... first we couldnt open the freaken mouth and the teacher rips it open with a sick crunch sound... *gah* then when we were tryin to cut the layer of skin open, we burst the intestines or sumthing cuz brown shiet starting squirting out.. yum.. and my other partner made the first cut wrong.. its all crooked and we cut through some weird shiet.. im guessing the lungs? kaka.. damn we're gona get such bad marks.. and we got an ugly pig too.. an old wrinkly one cuz it was in the bottom of the bucket.. other ppl got such fat lil things.. they were sooooo cute!!

[ mi = screw up ]
05.05.2003_{10:49 p.m.}
what the hell is going on? am i really screwing up that much at work or is there sumthing wrong withe the cash register? like seriously.. how is it possible that i lsot 9.97?? why such an odd number? and another thing.. i used the cash like TWICE before.. and it lost 7 bucks? ok i really think the comp is screwed.. or im going crazy.. why is all the screw ups happening to me? kinda makes me wonder.. see the second cash register i used to but then it was perfect (well short 10 cents but thats juss usually a countin error)!! but seriously. im scared... i must be having really bad luck.. i duno..it is quite obvious im superstitious.. and it juss makes me wonder.. is it cuz i started workin with my friend? i mean seriously.. im not blamin her.. but could it be that we should not work together? .. argh.. i duno.. i know im juss finding reasons behind why all this bad shiet is happening to me >.<

[ ball in the face ]
05.02.2003_{07:40 p.m.}
yesh.. i got a ball wacked in my face today.. well more like the neck.. but it still hurt...nehoo.. its a wonder how a person can find out truly how much their friends care about them through a minor incident such as this.. at first i seriously thought he was juss joking when he said "do u want me to do something about it?" but then later i realized that he was quite serious.. obviously i rejected his proposal.. but none the less.. i appreaciated very much that he and all the rest cared enuf to offer.. truthfully it was no biggie.. i mean i know they didnt do it on purpose.. they made it sound like someone juss beat me up.. but i guess it juss shows that they care.. and i must say.. the feeling of being cared about is great ^-^
neways.. other than that painful occurrance.. my day went great.. skipped first period to watch due le quartz.. and to mope aroung the house.. then went to pmall after skool.. kaka.. finally bought the necklace that i've been lookin for like crazy.. a silver rectangle on a black leather strap.. looks exactly like the one that sakito has.. keke.. and i got the person to engrave "due le quartz" on the front of it.. so purdy.. also got this cute t-shirt that changes colors in the sun o_O
BEST OF ALL, I GOT H.O.T.'S '99 LIVE CONCERT DVD... only i wanted to buy their last concert since i lost it.. but they only had this one..its still good though ^^

how i miss them >.<

04.30.2003_{11:45 p.m.}
[ dreams ]
that miyavi will be my samurai to save me out of my misery....

04.30.2003_{10:31 p.m.}
[ joys of the world ]
ice cream is definitely one of them ^-^ went to demetres.. and i feel a bit better already.. but none the less.. im startin my died tomoro.... >.<